staring at the pile of things I have to try to fit in my car tomorrow. Tomorrow is my last day in AZ - ah! I can't believe it - it almost feels like I'm going on vacation, minus the fact that I'm taking everything with me and my room is basically empty now. Weird. I think its hit my friends more than its hit me that I'm actually moving. I can tell they are sad (some have even verbalized this ;) ). I think it will probably hit me as I'm on the road... but part of me wonders if I am actually just very ready for this change. Usually by this time in change of seasons I have cried quite a bit or at least reflected, wondered, etc. Not so much this time. I almost feel bad. Its not that I won't miss this, and everyone here. It's that I am so certain of this next season, this next step, and so excited about what God is doing right now, I just am so sure! I have nothing to worry about, nothing to be sad about. I am leaving this place, these relationships, with nothing undone, no regrets. And for that I am incredibly thankful. I have learned and grown so much in the last 7 years here in AZ. And now it is time for me to move on, to allow God to take me somewhere (physically, spiritually, mentally) new. Even though I really don't know all of what God is doing or has for my future, it all looks so familiar.... because I have seen it before... in the secret place of prayer with the Father. I have waited a long time for some things, prayed much, seeked hard and I can see them in front of me now... not neccessarily in the physical yet (though, some are), but in the spiritual, they are so clearly here. I am just in awe... can't wait to write about all the new adventures God takes me on. What an amazing time, what an amazing life!
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